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"Ugh, what a week," she says to herself out loud in her head. You know exactly what I'm talking about! Don't worry; I won't bore you with a list of complaints. Pause.
Moving right along...
I'm a highly sensitive person (HSP). I am prone to feeling overwhelmed by strong emotions, internal and external stimuli, and a wide range of mysterious things. Why do you think I got into practicing energy work?
My sensitivities are amplified by lack of sleep, stress, and, yes, sometimes astrological events like full moons, eclipses, and retrogrades (ugh, full moons, eclipses, and retrogrades). Truth! I haven't been diligent about caring for my physical, emotional, and spiritual well-being this week. There was a full moon and a lunar eclipse, and we're in retrograde shadow...
Here's how it all rolled out (I'm getting to the wonk-a-doodle-ness).
On the fly, I met a spiritual business coach and spent the entire hour listening to them bashing spiritual development programs. This gave me pause. The moon's energy buzzed through me for days, so I had three sleepless nights. Concurrently, and don't judge me, I hadn't been taking my vitamins (my body requires them), so yeah, I was spiraling on several levels.
Then, a few days later, I met up with a friend, a beautiful and gifted psychic who was gracious enough to let me practice my new tools with her. Only, to my surprise, instead of practicing, I got gobble-whopped by an intense energy. It knocked me off my chair. I was ungrounded, anxious, tired, and unwell. Enter stage left, WONK-A-DOODLE-NESS.
My first reaction was to pull out my psychic tools, run my energy, ground myself, run my energy more, and try to get some sleep. It didn't work. I called my teacher. I called a few friends, and yes, I started my vitamins again.
Things settled a little, but ultimately, they culminated into a free-wheeling migraine buffet that was chaotic and hilarious. By now, you may be thinking, "Dang, that's a long list of complaints!"
After days of being steeped in WONK-A-DOODLE-NESS, frustration, and fatigue, I had an epiphany. I was so focused on how wrong everything was, how icky I felt, and trying to "heal it, clear it, move it...." that I was in a complete state of resistance, the antithesis of healing. The harder I tried to "get rid of the 'wonk,'" the more "doodles" arose.
Now that IS interesting!
I was swiftly reminded that I was already in resistance the moment I believed something was wrong. One cannot heal and be in resistance at the same time. Resistance can be so subtle.
So, I let the WONK-A-DOODLE-NESS wash over me. Whoosh! Ahhhh. I embraced it, stopped fighting it, and stopped trying to heal it. I still feel cruddy, but the energy is opening, and healing is washing over me.
Next time the WONK-A-DOODLE day comes and you feel off-kilter, beside yourself, irritable, or whatever, smile and appreciate its teaching, and before you know it...
Whoosh, ahhhhh, relief and healing!
It's wonderful to have psychic tools, they help us become more aware, and empower us to heal, but sometimes, the biggest healing comes from simply allowing things to be as they are.
XO Lisa